"Church failed me"

"Church failed me"

Published time
May 17, 2021 11:22 PM

Please note that this was written during the lockdowns when church buildings were closed. But its still as relevant and important today.

I'm writing this to encourage our generation and set them free. To give them clarity and understanding of their faith and encourage them to walk with the Lord.

I was talking to someone about the Kingdom of God and how things are being put in place for a great harvest, and somehow we came to the conversation about the church. And he told me something that got me thinking, and I even found myself in the same situation at one point in my life.

He told me: "The church failed me."

He didn’t think he needed to go to church because he wasn’t good enough. In other words, "I can’t be saved anyway, or it’s too hard."

Now, I don’t think the church necessarily failed him. There are always multiple sides to a story — we will look at that shortly.

This isn’t the first time a statement similar to this was being made to me as of late. It almost seems like the pandemic is revealing things to many people through the Word of God that they never saw before. Because for the first time in generations, we have a situation where we need to go and study the Word of God for ourselves.

For generations, the church didn’t have any persecution or any circumstances that made us change ourselves. We had the very best life. As long as we went to church once or twice a week, our consciousness would make us feel good - but is that the way Jesus wants us to live?

For the first time, people are sitting at home reading the Bible with a new lens seeking Jesus. The current circumstances made them react and seek change. If someone truly seeks Jesus, he reveals himself, and he starts to work in the supernatural. He starts to reveal the truth and prepare his bride for the harvest that is to come.

Please note that this message is not geared towards any specific church but the overall perception and direction of the current church (the body).

I believe there are two primary issues with the church today:

  1. People are not reading the Bible for themselves but trusting other humans too much and relying on their word instead of the Word of God. This puts people into a state of fear because they haven't learned to rely on Jesus and the guidance of the Holy Spirit but instead on a building and the people gathering in it.
  2. The teachers, preachers, and leaders don't preach Jesus and Jesus alone. Jesus should be the number one thing. The Gospel needs to be so clear that people have no doubt of salvation through faith in Jesus Christ and that they have so much trust in Him that whatever happens in this world, they know that they are being taken care of by our Lord and Saviour. From there, everything else will fall into place; evangelism, the spiritual gifts, the guidance of the Holy Spirit, true love towards others, and dying ourselves so we can live for Jesus. The desires of our hearts will only fulfill if we build an intimate relationship with Jesus. If we try to do it the other way around, where secondary things are being put as the first, Jesus can't lead us.

Jesus should always be at the forefront of everything we do. If we can't entrust him in everything we do, he can't entrust us with everything he wants for the church.

The Test by Fire

1 Corinthians 3:9-15

9 For we are God’s fellow workers; you are God’s field, you are God’s building.

10 According to the grace of God which was given to me, as a wise master builder I have laid the foundation, and another builds on it. But let each one take heed how he builds on it.

11 For no other foundation can anyone lay than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ.

12 Now if anyone builds on this foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw,

13 each one’s work will become clear; for the Day will declare it, because it will be revealed by fire; and the fire will test each one’s work, of what sort it is.

14 If anyone’s work which he has built on it endures, he will receive a reward.

15 If anyone’s work is burned, he will suffer loss; but he himself will be saved, yet so as through fire.

There's only one foundation that has already been laid, and that is Jesus Christ, and we need to build upon that foundation. In verse 13, it says, a day will come where everything will be tested by the fire to see what kind of works it is. This fire will burn down everything that isn't part of the foundation. Any of the works that can withstand the fire will receive a reward.

Isn't that what is happening right now? Even though this verse talks about the end of the current earth, we could also apply it to todays circumstance. Churches are closed, pastors are stepping down, leaders are staying quiet instead of leading. Everything is being revealed and tested by the fire. The good will stand, and the bad will be burned so we can rebuild stronger.

I believe soon, pastors and leaders worldwide are going to enter into a state of shock because they have acted like they own the people of God. They've put upon them unnecessary burdens and have controlled their own people even though they never paid the price for them. Jesus did with his own blood. And because of this transformation in individual lives, the church will be rebuilt.


Read Ezekiel 34. This is a prophecy in the Bible that will be repeated in this generation to rebuild the bride of Jesus Christ.

  1. Leaders will fall back into the original roles given to them, and God will rebuild the responsibilities according to the Word, and/or leaders will start to resign from their positions. It will be the phase where quiet individuals who seemed like they were last will be first, and the ones that people thought were first will be last.
  2. People will start to trust the guidance of the Holy Spirit, and the church will be filled with boldness, confidence, and faith in him who saved us. The church (Body of Christ) will be restored to its original state, and God will start to do things in the supernatural that our generation hasn't witnessed yet.


Read Psalm 78 1-11 regarding miracles and wonders that glorify God. These signs have been withheld for many in the church but God will restore them to bring in the great harvest.

Truth & Grace

I want to share something with you that changed my walk with the Lord and what I believe many people are still missing.

It also has a lot to do with why many people go to church all their life but haven’t experienced Jesus nor think they are saved. People in their early years all the way to older generations are struggling with their salvation. How can this be?

Today, many churches, preach truth, truth, truth.

“You’re a sinner, you’re a sinner, you’re a sinner”

Even though that message has its place, that message alone will not lead someone to Christ. We must not forget that Jesus came with grace and truth. If you only focus on the truth, it paints a picture of something tough to achieve, and that's why people are asking themselves how they can live as a Christian if they keep failing.

Indeed we are all sinners, but Jesus died for our sins and reconciled us with God. He made us righteous, and through the work of the cross, we have eternal life.

Without Jesus we can’t do anything. He’s our source, he’s our power, he’s our saviour and Lord.

We need to understand; we can’t have truth without grace, and we can’t have grace without truth.

John 1:14 - 14 And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth.

John 1:17 - 17 For the law was given through Moses, [but] grace and truth came through Jesus Christ.

If you go to one extreme (truth or grace without the other), you will live a life of suffering and neglect. But with Truth AND Grace, you will prosper and experience a new relationship with God that will make you spiritually mature.

Do we need work or rest? We need both. You can't have work without rest.

Do we do works for Jesus? Yes. Do we need to go into God's rest? Yes.

Do we have to give to others? Yes. Do we need to receive? Yes, because without receiving, we can't give.

Let's look at one example of how Jesus dealt with a sinner where the truth and grace can be seen very clearly:

John 8:1-12

1 But Jesus went to the Mount of Olives.

2 Now early in the morning He came again into the temple, and all the people came to Him; and He sat down and taught them.

3 Then the scribes and Pharisees brought to Him a woman caught in adultery. And when they had set her in the midst,

4 they said to Him, "Teacher, this woman was caught in adultery, in the very act.

5 "Now Moses, in the law, commanded us that such should be stoned. But what do You say?"

6 This they said, testing Him, that they might have [something] of which to accuse Him. But Jesus stooped down and wrote on the ground with [His] finger, as though He did not hear.

7 So when they continued asking Him, He raised Himself up and said to them, "He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first."

8 And again He stooped down and wrote on the ground.

9 Then those who heard [it], being convicted by [their] conscience, went out one by one, beginning with the oldest [even] to the last. And Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst.

10 When Jesus had raised Himself up and saw no one but the woman, He said to her, "Woman, where are those accusers of yours? Has no one condemned you?"

11 She said, "No one, Lord." And Jesus said to her, "Neither do I condemn you; go and sin no more."

12 Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, "I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life."

In this example, Jesus handled the situation with boldness and confidence. It paints a beautiful picture of how we should be treating people and guiding them. Jesus could have just told her that she's a sinner, blamed her for committing adultery, and making her feel really bad because of all the things she has done.

He didn't approach her in front of everybody and told her: "Adulterer, what are you doing? You're a bad person. You need to repent of your wrongdoings!"

No. That's not what He did.

First, He made sure everybody knew that they are all not perfect and without sin by calling them to throw the first stone if they are without sin. Then He told her, because nobody condemned you, neither will I. This is grace.

Right after grace, He told her the truth: "Go and sin no more".

If Jesus had led with just the truth, this woman would've left with a shattered heart. If Jesus had led with just grace, she would have probably committed the same sin again.


Pray to God right now and ask him to help you understand this. Go through the gospels and read how Jesus interacted with people and trust in the Holy Spirit to guide you in this.

Let's paint another picture of truth and grace to help with your understanding of this.

We've all seen families and/or churches that are very strict to a point where it becomes dangerous. This is the extreme of truth. The result a lot of times is kids falling apart, depression and hatred amongst each other.

On the other hand, we have also seen families and/or churches that are very open. Where you can do whatever you want according to your desires and pleasure. This is the extreme of grace. The result is a life where individuals walk in sin and fulfill their worldly desires.

The verdict is, you always need both: grace and truth. You can never go into one extreme or the other.

"I'll Never Make It"

At one time in my life, I used to be in a similar position as the gentleman I talked to who told me the church failed him. Personally, I've always thought I'd never make it. I never understood how people could be so loyal to Jesus, how they can be so pure with no sin, no wrongdoings.

My thoughts were filled with things like:

  • I have to be holy.
  • I have to try harder.
  • I have to be pure.
  • I have to be perfect.

I asked myself; How in the world is this possible? How come they can do it and I can’t?

Am I really this bad person?

Does God not want to help me?

Why am I crying out to God but it seems like its a dead end?

Those are questions I asked myself and maybe you’re asking yourself the same thing today.

For the longest time I was trying to earn myself into heaven.

My salvation was based on how good my day went, how often I read the Bible and how good of a person I am.

Oh how wrong I was.

One day, God finally opened my eyes through the Word and helped me understand what actually happened at the cross and what Jesus did for me. It was never this clear for me. God put me into the right circumstances to change the trajectory of my eternity for once and for all.

Once you understand what Jesus did for you on the cross and that everything is done for you at his death and resurrection, everything changes.

It's no longer "I need to read my Bible today" but now it's "I love reading my Bible because I need to get closer to him who saved me"

I need to pray today I want to pray to my father today and thank him for everything he has done for me.

I don't need to earn my salvation anymore I love and do good works because he who died for me loved me first. I want to fulfill his commandment out of the love that he showed me.

The Breakthrough

Here’s the first issue in many lives; And I'm talking of myself; I listened more to men than I did to God. The spiritual food was coming from preachers instead of personal revelation from the Word of God, which gives us eternal life through faith in Jesus Christ. But we also can not forget the other side, that faith comes from hearing and hearing through the word of Jesus Christ. Both of these need to align.

In order for us to have radical transformation in our lives we need three things:

  1. We need information
  2. We need revelation of that information
  3. And then we need action


IRA = Information, Revelation, Action

You can't interpret the information if you don't have the right revelation. Some people have revelation, but they don't have the right information. We must seek both. Seek the right information with the right revelation and then put it into action.

You can have a revelation from the enemy, but if it's not tested with the right information, your revelation will not lead to good fruit but lead you astray.

There are also different ways to understand the Word of God, so it's important you have the right revelation from God to understand it. We must read the Word of God through His lens and not religion.

We need to stop taking this beautiful picture and make it look complicated and hard to color in. We need to go back to the Word of God and understand what happened at the cross. We need to stop trying to control the people and let the Holy Spirit guide the people so they can be prepared for the great harvest because men alone can NOT fully transform people, but the Holy Spirit can. And we should never trust men but put all our dearest trust into Jesus Christ himself.

During my preparation for Baptism in 2014, God showed me a vision. I was in a pit of quicksand that was trying to pull me deeper into it. The more I tried to get out, the deeper I went. But all of a sudden, there was a hand reaching out to me and offering help. I instantly grabbed the hand, and God helped me out of this hole I was in. For years I was still struggling, and I wondered where God was, but now I realized that he was with me the whole time. Patiently guiding, loving, and helping me grow in the walk with him.

God's timing is perfect. It always is.

If you're at a spot where you feel lost, confused or think there's no way out, I want to remind you that Jesus is with you. He wants to guide you and help you but he can only do it once you surrender, fully. Surrender your life to Him and He will step in and change things for the better.

A Selfish Gospel

Today the gospel has become very self-centered. The Bible warns us of this. In the last days, people will become selfish and going after their own desires (2 Timothy 3).

It's all about what God can do for us.

We need to surrender to Jesus and understand what happened at the cross.

Through his death for all, we should no longer live for ourselves but for him.

The consequence of living for him is the forgiveness of sin, being made righteous, the reconciliation of God with his people, and a blessing from Heaven. But not through our own works so that no one can boast but through the work at the cross.

2 Corinthians 5:14-21

14 For the love of Christ compels us, because we judge thus: that if One died for all, then all died;

15 and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again.

16  Therefore, from now on, we regard no one according to the flesh. Even though we have known Christ according to the flesh, yet now we know Him thus no longer.

17 Therefore, if anyone is In Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.

18 Now all things are of God, who has reconciled us to Himself through Jesus Christ, and has given us the ministry of reconciliation,

19 that is, that God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not imputing their trespasses to them, and has committed to us the word of reconciliation.

20 Now then, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were pleading through us: we implore you on Christ’s behalf, be reconciled to God.

21 For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.

I believe there are three things we need to make sure to do today, and if done, everyone will see a change in their life.

  1. Stop listening to men and start trusting the Word of God
  2. Stop trying to earn your salvation
  3. Take his hand, and let him guide you

If you put your trust in Him and he will guide you into the truth.

Plug The Power Back In 🔌

Now what disconnects you from a relationship withour beloved God is sin. You can’t live with God if you live in sin. Sometimes you might mess up, we all sometimes do, and we all fall short of the Glory of God but remember, Jesus died for all, and he is ready to forgive. He's ready to renew. He's ready to make you a new creation. He’s ready to reconcile you back with God. Repent of your old ways and ask for forgiveness of your wrongdoings. Thank him for the cross and that he died for your sins, thank Him for forgiving you. If you accept that with faith, that he died for you and rose again, the debt is now paid.

If you owe the bank $10,000 and I were to give you a cheque today for $10,000 and tell you to go to cash it in at the bank, would your debt be paid?

Yes, it would, and that’s exactly what Jesus did for you. He signed the cheque with his blood and said, my child take this, it’s yours. Everything is now done for you. It is finished.

Once you understand what he has done for you, that he has given you eternal life, all you want to do is love him the same way he loved you. The Holy Spirit will come over you and renew you. It will give you a new life. The old is washed away, and you become a new creature.

Out of love to him, you will serve him. Out of love for him, you want to tell the world about his work at the cross, his death, and his resurrection, and what he did for you. Out of love, you will keep his commandments and becoming a loving person.

You won’t do these things to earn your salvation, but you will do these things because you received salvation, and he has set you free from the bondage of this world.

He has given us everything and more. It is finished.

1 Peter 2:9

But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light

Once you accept Christ as your Lord and Savior, you can’t be made more holy. You can’t be made more righteous. You can’t be made more blessed. It’s all done. Jesus finished it all on the cross for you. You need to accept this exchange that happened on the cross in faith and trust him with all your heart.

It's important we don't take this out of context and abuse the grace with the freedom to do whatever we please. You can't have just grace; you need truth as well. And you can't have truth alone; you also need grace. The Bible does ask us to stay holy and stay righteousness (Rev 22:11).

But, we ourselves can’t do it, and that's why Jesus died and suffered for you on the cross, he did everything he needed to do for you, and you’re still trying to become righteousness by your own works. He’s saying to you, was I not enough?

Galatians 2:20

20 “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

21 “I do not set aside the grace of God; for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died in vain.


Vain = producing no result or without cause

Imagine this, there's a person named Alice and there's Bob.

Alice tells Bob: "I will paint your whole room. It will be with the best paint you’ve ever seen. It will be spotless. The paint is the most expensive paint that exists and will ever exist in this world. It won't be produced again."

Alice comes, she finishes the work, and Bob comes in.

He looks at everything and says, "WOW, that is truly a good job. You’ve done all this for me? What do I owe you?"

Alice says: "Nothing, I've done it out of love for free.

Bob says: "Thank you so much, I like what you've done. Now I don't need to worry about my old paint that kept falling off the walls".

But shortly after, even though Bob has acknowledged this work, he takes out the paintbrush and starts painting over Alice's perfect paint that was VERY expensive. All that work from Alice was now for nothing.

How would Alice feel?

Probably not great.

Was the paint from Alice now in vain? (Without cause or producing no results)

Yes it was.

This is an example of what happens if we are trying to get saved by our own works. Was Jesus not good enough? Did he die without cause?

Galatians 2:21 “I do not set aside the grace of God; for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died in vain.

We need to stop mixing the old covenant mentality with the new covenant. He has done everything for you. You need to accept it with faith and start living for him like the Bible demands of you. In the old covenant, it was all about what you can do for God. The law was the connector between you and God. In the new covenant, it's all about what Jesus did for us. Nobody comes to the Father except through Jesus Christ.

Galatians 2:20

20 “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

2 Corinthians 5:14-21

14 For the love of Christ compels us, because we judge thus: that if One died for all, then all died;

15 and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again.

Stop trying to please man but please Jesus. Once you don’t care what people think and you start listening to the voice of God, things will change for you, and you will have transformation.

Repent of your own sinful ways and follow Jesus because the Kingdom of God has come near. Stop the selfish life and take the cross upon you. For years you've done things your own way. You were the Lord of your life and not Jesus.

But it's time for a change. It's time to turn away from our selfish ways. Today you can turn things around and follow Jesus. Finally, find real purpose in your life. To live for someone who loves you and cares for you. To live for someone who gives you eternal life and eternal riches. Repent, turn around, follow Jesus because the Kingdom of heaven is at hand.

If you are ready to live a new life for Jesus, say this prayer with me: Jesus, I’m so sorry for my shortcomings. I’m sorry for my sins. I ask that you forgive me. I ask that you show me your truth. I will accept your revelation to me of the truth in faith because you said if we ask for bread, we won’t be given a stone, so today, I’m asking for your truth and guidance so that I can walk with you in faith. For a long time, I was my own Lord over my life, but today, Jesus, I’m accepting you as MY Lord and savior. Today I believe that you died for my sins and rose again, and through your work, at the cross, you've given me everything that I need. Today you have my heart, and I’m now your servant. Thank you for forgiving me, and thank you for showing me your truth and grace. Amen.


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